touch

I'm sitting here in class and we are speaking about the concept of touch, who can touch, who should touch, and culturally speaking who touches. One of the guys is from India, and we were talking about the concept of a 'bro' and 'bromance'. He was talking about how in India everyone is a bro, and if a guy is just happy he might come up to you (another guy) and hug you and kiss you just because. He spoke about how it is strange how much men in the states do not touch and also how this 'bro' culture goes back to other cultures, less seemingly evolved cultures as the states like to claim themselves to be.

 I like the idea of touch as okay, it was great to hear him talk about touch. "I love to be touched," he said, then went on to speak about his mother's touch, his friend's touch, and then how boring the concept of being touched by no one other than his significant other for the rest of his life would be. 

I think about myself and how I feel about touch, with both guys and girls. I think I'm a very 'touchy' person, but that sounds strange. I'm very affectionate, my dad has always noted the way in which if I would come into a room where he was as a child, to watch tv or anything else, I would constantly be snuggled up under him, as much as I could. I think I'm still like that, but I'm also awkward about touch. I think I often feel the need to be the one to initiate the touch. There are certain people who if I'm around th

em I'm constantly touching them, my closest guy friends it is always this way. I was always awkward around girls until boarding school, then the influx of female touching threw me off, now I've normalized and I think that yes I am now as 'huggy' with my girl friends. But my guy friends it's definitely much more so, and the line between which its platonic is an entirely other question.

I think often it's either very platonic and both parties understand that, the other individual is also a relatively touchy friend, or there is a mutual attraction. I think where I get weird is when I don't want to give the wrong impression and I think the person might not be much of a toucher themselves with most of their friends or they might think it means i like them in a way where I would want to do something about it, and that's not the idea.

Maybe I'll come back to this, I really haven't deeply considered the way in which I touch before.